Why again, must I lose my love?
Cursed to never keep what I’m sure I most want.
Star student of Grief,
Wasted genius of Love,
Force fed again, the wisdom of isolation...
Met me tough, ate me up, got me soft, and left me lost
Lost my voice, gave no choice, unheard no matter how loud or generous
So now I watch my shadow on the wall
Become a different animal
Shedding skin, shredding it all
That shape shifts brutal
Practicing isolation never thought it’d be that bad
But I found muscles in my body that I never knew I had
Focusing on precision planning movements far ahead
We suffer through the growth
Work your body work your body
Get back in your body in your body
Work your body work your body
Purr against my root
To soothe my aching guts
A wash of afternoon returning to my own love
It’s pure against my womb
More than just a nut
Crack me into liquid
Crush me into dust
Now I’m alone
Making sure my body is inhabitable
Turn on a habit that’s inevitable
Work your body work your body work your body
Practicing isolation never thought it’d be that bad
But I found muscles in my body that I never knew I had
Focusing on precision planning movements far ahead
We suffer through the growth...
(You’re gonna be okay. You gotta be okay.
You’re too good to waste.
You just have to try- you have to try just a little bit harder.
Can you do that?)
credits
from Showing Up,
released September 22, 2023
Written by Samantha Urbani, Sasha Desree and Nick Weiss
Performed by Samantha Urbani, Nick Weiss, and Sasha Desree
Featuring the voice of Donna DiCarlo, recorded by Robin Urbani
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