1. |
Showing Up
03:54
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I've walked through a thousand fires
So don't act like it's not a miracle I'm even alive
Cause I've always been the tough one
To take care when you’re tired
Suck it up and hold your trembling hand
While you're out there being admired
Yet I'm still showing up, I’m still showing up for you
You say you’re growing up, but I know it isn't true
I'm still showing up, I’m still showing up for you
Don't tell me that you’re stuck- I’d go all the way for you
I've loved you for a thousand lives
So don't act like I was ever untrue or unkind
You revealed yourself as a friend to me
With your pure delinquent smile
And every time you bared your teeth and broke my trust I forgave with "he's just a child"
But you reveal yourself strategically
To bounce ahead with no denial
Rubber burn, spin out quick turn
If I expect one ounce of fair trial
Yet I'm still showing up, I’m still showing up for you
You say you’re growing up, But I know it isn't true
I'm still showing up, I’m still showing up for you
Don't tell me that you're stuck- I’d go all the way for you
Thinking I don't deserve the patience I had with you
But you made it clear that you just don't have the energy do you
Thinking I don't deserve the patience I had with you
But you made it clear that you just don't have the integrity
Sometimes I wish I had more of a taste for vengeance
Sometimes I wish I’d been born more of a capitalist
There's no getting even in my mind
I never thought you'd be who I'd end up enemies with
(Sometimes I feel like... if I don’t say everything...
What’s the point of saying anything at all?)
I'll always be your confidant
Best friend, I won't forget our stuff
And if we ever twist back to touch again
I'll be bright as I was
Cause I'm still showing up, I’m still showing up for you
You say you’re growing up, But I know it isn't true
I'm still showing up, I’m still showing up for you
Don't tell me that you’re stuck- I’d go all the way for you
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2. |
One Day at a Time
03:20
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(What to do- what to do- what to do? When-)
Kissing you feels vital to my survival
I mean, I can live without it, go through the motions uninspired
I don't believe in archetypes, and I don't care for titles
Just don't treat me like an enemy- we’re lovers not rivals
And I'm immune to guitars; I’m immune to cool
Immune to everything that once made me a fool
And knowing that I can't be tricked leaves me a bit confused
Could it mean what I think it means?
I really like you- ew.
We can't help but always have a good time
So don't leave it to someday- we’re wasting time
Maybe just Sundays are yours and mine
Fuck it up one day at a time
Missing you is dizzying, what a spiral
Break my neck every time the phone rings like a child
It's never you and it shouldn't be, I’ll tell myself for a while
But then it is- like, “How ya been?” “Um I'm fine. Bye.”
Of course I wanna hit you with “I miss you, come over”
But I'll protect myself and redirect myself
I’m smarter. I’m older.
Staying busy, doing pushups- I’m better off, I told ya.
But how stupid are you?
I miss you. Come over.
We can't help but always have a good time
So don't leave it to someday- we’re wasting time
Maybe just Sundays are yours and mine
Fuck it up one day at a time
We can't help but always have a good time
So don't leave it to someday- we’re wasting time
Maybe just Sundays are yours and mine
Fuck it up one day at a time
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3. |
Fine Lines
03:43
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I'm walking on a fine line
between my life and the time I spend with you
We operate on your dime,
Hot eyes, late nights, and borrowed truths
Creatures of high society- they get high on who they try to be!
You and I lock eyes naturally-
The only good thing in this room is you and me
Don't you wanna get up and go?
Why we always hide in the shadows?
Coulda spent the whole night alone.
But are the fine lines all that you know?
You can take your time
Try to walk your straight line, falling all over yourself
I don't wanna die
Or live a lie trying to hold up someone else
Waking up, your blood in my mouth- (ahh!)
Laughing at you so blown out
Don't you wanna get up and go?
Why we always hide in the shadows?
Coulda spent the whole night alone
But are the fine lines all that you know?
Don't you wanna get up and go?
(We don't need to talk about it)
Why we always hide in the shadows?
(Maybe we can work around it)
Coulda spent the whole night alone
(Maybe you should worry bout it)
But are the fine lines all that u know?
(Yeah you can turn your body out - but can you turn Urbani out?
Yeah you can turn your body out- but can you turn Urbani out?)
Don't you wanna get up and go?
Why we always hide in the shadows?
Coulda spent the whole night alone
But are the fine lines all that you know?
Don't you wanna get up and go?
Why we always hide in the shadows?
Coulda spent the whole night alone
But are the fine lines all that you know?
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I'm wide awake in your dream
You're cool convincing me
It's not a cross eyed fantasy, and every night you're feeding me
This close proximity
To everything that I need
Against my sensibility
I believe you
I’ll go all the way
I'll go all the way if you make me feel safe
Don't take me all the way just to fill an empty space
You only say sweet things cause you like the way they taste
It's 3am and you call from the garden
To say all you wanted
But don't see the consequence
You’re being reckless and I'm being honest
But when you’re desperate is no time for promises
It's common sense
I'm wide awake as you speak
Some drunk soliloquy
Is it a gift to notice everything
As you're recklessly lifting me?
Just to drop me
To a rock hard reality
Against my sensibilities
I believe you
It's 3am and you call from the garden
To say all you wanted
But don't see the consequence
You’re being reckless and I'm being honest
But when you’re desperate is no time for promises
It's common sense...
Promises...
I’ll go all the way
I'll go all the way if you make me feel safe
Don't take me all the way just to fill an empty space
You only say sweet things cause you like the way they taste
It's 3am and you call from the garden
To say all you wanted
But don't see the consequence
You’re being reckless and I'm being honest
But when you’re desperate is no time for promises
I'm wide awake in your dream
You're cool convincing me
(It’s common sense)
It's not a cross eyed fantasy, and every night you're feeding me
This close proximity
To everything that I need
Against my sensibilities
I believed you
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I could hand it off to god
But is she looking out for me...?
If she let me fall in love...?
With another one who’s not down for me? Been giving it all my heart
Cause feeling you right next to me
Is more than just a want
I feel some kind of divine symmetry—
And even if god herself could see me,
She’d leave me to decide
Whether to keep giving you my light
Acting like you don’t need me- I’m the one who can see you
Guiding you through the seasons- I’ve been here for a reason
I could be your guiding star
But I can only take you so far! Ah!
Girl, your love’s been omnipotent
But it feels like darkness is imminent
I’m afraid I need to find out- who I am when you’re not around
Acting like you don’t need me- I’m the one who can see you
Guiding you through the seasons- I’ve been here for a reason
I could be your guiding star
But I can only take you so far!
Feels unreal, it’s unreal
No matter how I deal with it
Feels like we could break... through!
Are we about to break...? Through...?
(Looking for a path to take)
Feels unreal, its unreal
It’s so surreal, but it feels like we could break
Acting like you don’t need me- I’m the one who can see you
Guiding you through the seasons- I’ve been here for a reason
I could be your guiding star
But I can only take you so far!
(Take me further babe - further...
Let me know what to do - Let me know how to do it
Do I even deserve - Your confidence?
Leading me through - Reminding me I want it too...)
Acting like you don’t need me- I’m the one who can see you
Guiding you through the seasons- I’ve been here for a reason
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6. |
Isolation
03:53
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Why again, must I lose my love?
Cursed to never keep what I’m sure I most want.
Star student of Grief,
Wasted genius of Love,
Force fed again, the wisdom of isolation...
Met me tough, ate me up, got me soft, and left me lost
Lost my voice, gave no choice, unheard no matter how loud or generous
So now I watch my shadow on the wall
Become a different animal
Shedding skin, shredding it all
That shape shifts brutal
Practicing isolation never thought it’d be that bad
But I found muscles in my body that I never knew I had
Focusing on precision planning movements far ahead
We suffer through the growth
Work your body work your body
Get back in your body in your body
Work your body work your body
Purr against my root
To soothe my aching guts
A wash of afternoon returning to my own love
It’s pure against my womb
More than just a nut
Crack me into liquid
Crush me into dust
Now I’m alone
Making sure my body is inhabitable
Turn on a habit that’s inevitable
Work your body work your body work your body
Practicing isolation never thought it’d be that bad
But I found muscles in my body that I never knew I had
Focusing on precision planning movements far ahead
We suffer through the growth...
(You’re gonna be okay. You gotta be okay.
You’re too good to waste.
You just have to try- you have to try just a little bit harder.
Can you do that?)
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7. |
An Opportunity
03:27
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Cautious but self assured
I’ll meet you at your door
But tonight I won’t step inside
Like a thousand times before
Slow way down if you need that
But you gotta hear me out when you come back
Every crack lets in new light
Can I dare you to explore?
Apparently, you think it’s nothing like it used to be
I’m optimistically
Trying to make you think about it differently
Apparently, it’s nothing like it used to be
But am I foolishly
Trying to make you see it as an opportunity?
You think you wanna end it now?
Well, go ahead and tell me how
Even if we burn it down
It’ll always feel like home
Ordinary words can make extraordinary songs
You and I two pieces but there’s magic in the sum
Apparently, you think it’s nothing like it used to be
I’m optimistically
Trying to make you think about it differently
Apparently, it’s nothing like it used to be
But am I foolishly
Trying to make you see it as an opportunity?
Apparently, it’s nothing like it used to be
Now I’m desperately
Trying to make you think about it differently
Am I barely hanging on to your belief in me?
And am I foolishly
Seeing every problem as an opportunity?
Ordinary words can make extraordinary songs
You and I two pieces but there’s magic in the sum
Ordinary words can make extraordinary songs
You and I two pieces but there’s magic in the sum
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I was swinging from the mezzanine
Raging in the spaces in between.
Ambitious baby’s optimistic faith-
A choking allergy to vanity-
Everybody get away from me!
I just need another ordinary day!
Now time keeps slipping, uh- keeps slipping, uh-
Time keeps slipping away
And I need you more than I could ever say
Time keeps slipping, uh- keeps slipping, uh-
Time keeps slipping away
And I need you more than I could ever say
I was on a quest of anarchy-
To rip apart success and pedigree!
And see if I could offer an escape.
But I became the hot commodity,
with no way to avoid hypocrisy-
Was paralyzed with no good move to make!
Now time keeps slipping, uh- keeps slipping, uh-
Time keeps slipping away
And I need you more than I could ever say
Time keeps slipping, uh- keeps slipping, uh-
Time keeps slipping away
And I need you more than I could ever say
(You’re running out of time...
You’re running out of time...)
1 2 3 4 -
Time keeps slipping, uh- keeps slipping, uh-
Time keeps slipping away
And I need you more than I could ever say
Time keeps slipping, uh- keeps slipping, uh-
Time keeps slipping away
And I need you more than I could ever say
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9. |
Evidence
03:16
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Talk to me- paint a picture- that I'll remember baby
Then make it real- put it in my hands- evidence - oh!
Can you admit you get lonely?
Can you admit you go crazy sometimes?
Cause I can say your the only one to make me curious here
And it’s up to you to prove me right
Won't waste my time- waiting for the right guy!
I'm alright- by myself tonight but-
Show me evidence that your ready for me
I'm stronger than the men who been coming for me
I'm so tired of lies!
Show me evidence that your ready for me baby
Show me evidence that you can do better baby
Show me, show me, show me, show me baby
Cause when u step across that line- I’m bout to make my mind up!
I can admit I’m particular- my standards eliminate most guys
I know your all the same, don’t need to get meticulous with it-
But I reserve the right to be surprised!
Won't waste my time- waiting for the right guy!
I'm alright- by myself tonight but-
Show me evidence that your ready for me
I'm stronger than the men who been coming for me
I'm so tired of lies
Show me evidence that your ready for me baby
Show me evidence that you can do better baby
Show me, show me, show me, show me baby
Cause when you step across that line- I’m bout to make my mind up!
Talk to me- paint a picture- that I'll remember baby
Then make it real- put it in my hands- evidence - oh!
Show me evidence that your ready for me baby
Show me evidence that you can do better baby
Show me, show me, show me, show me baby
Cause when you step across that line- I’m bout to make my mind up!
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10. |
More Than a Feeling
04:36
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Now we have this situation and I don’t wanna lose my cool
But I feel a dedication to using all my tools
To try to fix anyone believing love’s only for fools.
When you needed a distraction, I needed an addiction
I know you hate making predictions and I’m too obsessed with taking action
Now I don’t wanna be too obvious, but I’ll go on...
I guess it’s more than a feeling now-
a voice keeps saying something’s wrong-
And you had 16 hours to meet me here- and I know you’d never run, but it’s-
Getting colder than freezing now, and you had
Several ways to keep me warm- and if you can’t bring yourself to meet me here,
I guess I can’t believe in this anymore
But its cool- I’ve got myself tonight
Now I don’t want a confrontation, plus one where I might lose,
but as I have this realization, I think it’s best to break the news-
Yeah I know the pieces falling on you will never bruise.
You just say “anything could happen” and I don’t wanna cause some friction-
But I think you’re too fucking ambitious to act so aloof towards satisfaction.
Now I don’t wanna be so serious, but I’ll go on, again...
I guess it’s more than a feeling now-
a voice keeps saying something’s wrong-
And you had 16 hours to meet me here- and I know you’d never run, but it’s-
Getting colder than freezing now, and you had
Several ways to keep me warm- and if you can’t bring yourself to meet me here,
I guess I can’t believe in this anymore
But its cool- I’ve got myself tonight
It’s cool- I’ll probably have myself my whole life
It’s cool- is my pride hiding my sight?
So long, again...
I guess it’s more than a feeling now-
a voice keeps saying something’s wrong-
And you had 16 hours to meet me here- and I know you’d never run, but it’s-
Getting colder than freezing now, and you had
several ways to keep me warm- and if you can’t bring yourself to meet me here,
I guess I can’t believe in this anymore
But its cool- I’ve got myself tonight
Cause it’s more than a feeling now...
I’ll probably have myself my whole life...?
And I can feel it now... I just wanna make it nice...
And if I’m gonna leave you here ... I know it's gonna be alright
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11. |
c u clear
03:17
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Last night in a dream- I was on a steep cliff you walked me to
You were like a light in the fog
Hiding from me- aligned but out of reach
What’s this, in between us?
Before we wake now
Pray the rain comes down
Before we wake now
Let’s cut through to the meaning of-
Why I can’t ever see you clear?
If I ever see you clear- I’m keeping you right here
If I ever see you clear (I’m keeping you right here)
If I ever see you clear- I’m keeping you right here
If I ever see you clear
With respect to mystery- may I present another way?
We could be running until we jump!
The way you’ve been loving me- resonates timidly, but-
Could I coax you into the sun?
Mmm, before we wake up now,
Pray the rain comes down!
Before we wake now-
Let’s cut through to the meaning of-
Why I can’t ever see you clear?
(Can you find me? Wake up beside me?)
If I ever see you clear- I’m keeping you right here
If I ever see you clear (I'm keeping you right)
If I ever see you clear- I’m keeping you right here
If I ever see you clear
If you even knew-
How deep I feel for you
Every time you’re near, something interferes-
Why won’t you let me... (keep you right)
If I ever see you clear- I’m keeping you right here
If I ever see you clear (I'm keeping you right here)
If I ever see you clear- I’m keeping you right here
If I ever see you clear
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